Sunday, November 22, 2015
"I Never had to choose my subject- my subject chose me" Ben Edition
Saturday, November 21, 2015
Blog 1 Robert (I can't believe I didn't do the first one) Hancock
Blog 4 Robert Hancock
Blog 5 Robert Hancock
Blog 7 Robert Hancock
Blog 9 Robert Hancock
Monday, November 16, 2015
Blog Post #11 YKK
Blog Post #10 YKK
Also, not being loved back. It goes for a lot of human beings and a lot of other organisms - to stay in the herd, to fit in, to be loved for nothing else but who you are. And that’s where insecurity comes from, and worry. Often I forget this fear, often I assure it and hide it and smuggle it away on a ship and pay the captain to never let it come back again. It's never far away, though. And when it finds me then I become unreasonable and have my worst moments, not to mention use enough tissues to feel like I owe my parents money for using so much of them.
I don’t think utter loneliness like the middle of a forest would be as bad because then you can at least somewhat attest the lack of love to the lack of other sentient human beings to communicate with. And even then you would have animals, hopefully, who are usually pretty darn good at unconditional love.
But when you’re surrounded by hundreds of people, it’s harder to make that excuse. It’s scary because the results don’t really rely on your effort - how much you pour into a person, it’s never a guarantee of anything back. And so the solution is to never expect anything back, and to be free in your caring. But that doesn’t mean that it isn’t terrifying in some way.
But then there's always some sort of Asian food, or some sort of wings or salad with Asian sauce that always manage to cheer everything up, or a picture of a really really cute kitten. And then I question my emotional stability (which if it is affected by food, it's really not much). Even rereading my post, I wonder why I would ever think those thoughts. Meh.
YKK Blog Post #9
Ramblings YKK #8
Annoyances: (the things I see in myself) people not being themselves, pride, prejudices, hypocrisy
Accomplishments: debate, family, not giving up on my book, not being a shriveled up piece of tree bark mauled by squirrels in heart
Confusions: HUMAN BEINGS and why life turns out the way it does
Sorrows: never having “enough time”
Dreams: publishing books, enjoying my job, enjoying life, traveling everywhere, living by the beach, enjoying relationships
Idiosyncrasies: terrible posture, ever changing handwriting,
Risks: existing, drowning in extracurriculars, caring
Beloved Possessions, Now and Then: Then: Smallville. Now: Owl collection, computer, relationships
Problems: time management
A lot of times I try to figure out why other people do the things that they do. I’m not sure why; maybe I think I’ll be able to understand their behavior better? Not judging is something that I always try to do and fail. I make up excuses for almost everybody and everything that I see that I don’t like. Maybe that’s just their personality that's coming out interestingly, or maybe the person speeding on the highway just really needs to get home to go to the bathroom. If the person whacked me with their backpack and walked away or didn’t see me when I waved at them, maybe they were preoccupied with thoughts of brownie bacon at home or their mom just told them that they had to come home early because the fridge is heating everything up. And these are lame excuses and honestly don’t solve anything but I also can’t be like, WHY DID YOU DO THAT? because often I don’t know when I do things myself.
And Smallville is a village made up of small toys that had their own lives - and I was an eight-year-old God over them. (wow. that sounds like an early symptom of control-freak-ness. I promise I’m not as much of a control freak anymore?) They opened restaurants when I told them to, went on vacation in dragon infested lands because I told them to, and rebelled against their parents and became pirates when I told them to. They got in petty fights, tried to enslave fellow citizens, and introduced new members; they fussed whenever I put them into dingy apartments after a month of silky and studded stardom traveling the world. I always knew how it ended, and there was plenty of drama. This was the TV of my earlier years.
Sunday, November 15, 2015
A Tragic Love Story by Allie Gregory
I wait silently in the darkness, lamenting my lonesome state. I am angry with the human girl, upset with her. But I am not angry and I am not upset because she left me on the floor of the bedroom -- it's carpet, exactly what I am used to. I'm not even angry or upset because she left me lying on my side -- its not the most comfortable position, but I'm resilient and I can handle it. I am only angry because I'm left here without her. I am upset because I miss her, and don't know what to do without her. She's my life, my everything. My best friend. And she's gone.
So now I lay here by myself, and I want nothing more than to call out to her. We spend day after day, chasing each other down hallways -- I'm in front, she's in front, I'm in front -- and it's only at night in the closet when we finally get to be really truly together. Like I said, tonight is a very bad night. I wait. And I wait. And I hope that the sun will come soon, because the sooner the human girl has to get up, the sooner she finds her under the bed, and the sooner we can be reunited. I need her. By myself, I'm just a left shoe without right shoe, and how then could I ever feel complete? She's my sole mate... I just hope the night passes quickly.
Thomas Winterton- Post 12
Phil could always sleep, any where, any time. Not because he was an active individual or enjoyed sleeping, but because Phil was indeed, a pillow. Phil belonged to an individual named Thomas who was in his junior year of high school. Our story is not about Thomas though, but about Phil and the adventures that occurred when Thomas was away at school.
"Is he gone?" said Jerry, the T.V. remote who was lying on the nightstand next to Thomas' bed, "of course he's gone you fools." Said Dan, who was just a flip flop with a bad attitude. "Your just mad you don't get worn anymore since its November Dan." said Felecia who was indeed an old iPhone 4 case. "At least i'll be used again in a few months, you probably sit in the same drawer you just hopped out of for the rest of time, at least until Thomas throws you away." said Dan angrily. "Might be worth it if it means I don't have to listen to you complain all day." Felecia said neutrally. "Enough!" Roared Phil the pillow who had stirred and was awoken by the childish banter from the two trouble makers. "You all argue like children all the time, if this keeps up we are going to lock you two in the attic until y'all can get along." The flip flop and the iPhone case apologized to each other and the room fell quiet once more. Thomas' belongings viewed Phil as their leader for reasons unknown, but Phil naturally slid into the role as leader because he was soft enough for his friends to like and bond with, but was firm enough to ensure no one got their feelings hurt. Never too soft nor too firm, Phil was perfect for his fellow house object and Thomas alike.
Thomas Werner Post 12
Post 12- Tori
Her small fingers are gentle on my worn pages. Her wide eyes sweep my ink over and over, as if she’s afraid she'll forget my words. As if she's memorizing them. My spine is well used, and bent out of its original shape. The corners of my pages are bent, and some are never straightened- these are her favourite pages. She marks them, and on days when she is sad, she flips through them. And she smiles even though the tears roll down her cheeks. On days like these, I wish I could comfort her, tell her that things would be alright. In the dark of the night, when she awakes screaming, scrambling to grip my pages, I wish I could scare away the terrors that hide in the corners of her mind, wish that I could calm the tremors in her hands.
Sometimes she goes months without turning my pages, and I can feel the dust weighing me down onto the table next to her bed. Sometimes she falls asleep with her hand on my cover, as if I can somehow keep the bads at bay. I wish I could. Oh how I wish I could protect her and her fragile mind. I suppose in some ways I do, I am the comfort she reaches for when the bads become too much, I am the extra happiness on sunny days. I am all of these, for her.
Hannah Price- Assignment 12
Nate Assignment 12
Holden Huffman Blog post #12
Me and Holden are best friends. Wherever he goes, I go. He hardly ever leaves me behind because he loves me so much. Whenever he doesn't know something, I tell him the answer because I have ALL the answers...... I help him when he is bored or gets into an awkward situation. I help him with homework when he doesn't quite know how to do it. I give him games to play, articles to read, pictures to look at, etc.... I take pictures for him, I am his connection to his friends and family when he is not with them. If you haven't figured out already, I'm Holden's phone, and he and I have a great relationship. I have heard rumors though that he is thinking about replacing me for Christmas, but I don't think he would ever do that to me. We have known each other for almost 2 years and I hope that we continue on as friends for many years to come.
Aditi Lohe Blog Post 12
I'd better rest up.
In the Spirit of the Holidays- Annie Deitz (Blog post 12)
Anyways, Christmas Eve is my favorite day of the year. I just love how Mr. comes running down the stairs each morning, belching out carols at the top of his lungs. I love how Mrs. bakes those wonderful smelling cookies. I love how the little one skips around excitedly, shaking the perfectly wrapped gifts that sit under my branches. I love how the carolers ring on the doorbell and inevitably are invited in for warm cocoa. I love how they light a fire and sit on the couch, reading tales of Christmas' past.
I remember the first year I met my family, eight years ago. I lived inside of a market, alone and friendless. Surrounded by my fellow peers, yet ostracized because of my small stature and puny décor. When I saw Mr. and Mrs. enter the store, I knew that they were special. I knew that they were going to be my friends, my family. "That one," Mrs. said. "I want that one."
"That one?" Mr. responded. "It's so small. How could it possibly hold my ornaments and your Mother's ornaments."
"But it's so cute. And, look at the price."
"The price doesn't matter. We don't need to worry about money, right?"
Mrs. glanced nervously down at her stomach. "There's no problem with saving money now. You know, just in case."
"Come on Em, let's just get the bigger one."
"But those cost too much money."
They stared at each other in silence. Mr. raised his eyebrows slightly. "Matt... We need to save money because... Because we're having a baby."
Mr. picks Mrs. up and spins her around. They then pick me up and take me to their home, and I've been a part of their family ever since.
I can already sense something different about this year, though. The sun has risen to the top of the sky before Mr. trudges down the stairs. He walks into the kitchen and attempts to make a cup of coffee. After about five minutes, he gives up, and stumbles into the living room. He grabs a bottle from the shelf and pours the dark brown liquid into his coffee mug. He sits down on the couch, sighing. "It's five o'clock somewhere," he mutters to himself.
Over the course of the next few hours, he refills his glass until all of the gross stuff disappears. He slowly becomes more and more incoherent, crying, cursing. "Why do people always leave? Am I not good enough? Am I? Where are you, God? What?"
Eventually, he falls asleep, his limbs sprawled across the couch. He slumbers until late afternoon, when he is woken by a knock on the door. I pray that the mysterious party is the carolers. Just one routine thing will make the whole day worth it. Perhaps it will even cheer up Mr.
It isn't the carolers. It's the priest from Mr. and Mrs.'s church. Mr. reluctantly welcomes him in, embarrassed by the glass bottles littering the floor. The priest tells Mr. how he never saw him anymore, and asking him to come to a Christmas service that night. Mr. politely refuses, but the priest is persistent. Eventually Mr. agrees. The priest also insists that he drives, considering Mr.'s current state. Mr. agrees again.
The sun sets. Christmas Eve is almost over. I don't understand. Where are the carolers? Mrs.? Their little one? This Christmas has been a strange and confusing one. By the time Mr. returns, the fire has reduced to embers, and a chill envelops the room. The aroma of alcohol follows Mr., clearly his time at church had turned into time somewhere else. He seems angry, I wish he wouldn't, it's Christmas Eve. Christmas Eve is amazing.
He stumbles into the living room, snot and tears drench his face and shirt. "How dare she. The audacity.. I... I shdahdh. I should... My church, they come to my church. Sh- she brings her to this town. They don't even want to see me... They don't...."
He picks up one of the glass bottles and slams it onto the table. It shatters, cutting Mr. My lights continue to twinkle, their glow refracting off of the shards, lighting up the room. The fire has completely died, and the darkness strangles the two of us in a lonely, cold feeling of despair.
Mr. starts yelling at the sky. "Where are you? Why- what did I DO? I don't deserve. WHY would you let them leave? WHY WOULD YOU LET HER LEAVE ME? I've been loyal! I HAVE TRIED SO HARD. YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME. WHERE IS YOUR MERCY? WHERE IS THAT ALL LOVING POWER THAT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO HAVE?"
He spends the next ten or so minutes breaking everything in the room. I'm scared. I've never seen him like this. After almost everything is broken, he collapses on the ground in a heaving, drunken mess. I stop twinkling. I'm so confused. I guess Mrs. and the little one left, and I guess Mr. didn't want them to. I guess that's why he's so sad. After a depressingly long time spent cradling himself on the floor, Mr. looks up, at me. He stares at a while. If only I could communicate with him, if I could remind him of all of those happy years we had spent together. His gaze is too strong, and I redirect my focus to the window. Outside, snow is falling. It's beautiful, but I can feel the frigid desolation created by those beautiful flake from within the room. I think that Mr. is remembering. I think he's recalling all of those happy memories, the night they first bought me, the years he spent carefully wrapping presents and placing them under me, the nights in which my twinkling lights welcomed them home from church.
But it seems to be making him angry. He picks me up and drags me outside. Outside, where the harsh, ruthless snow chills my plastic branches. I'm thrown into the grass. Mr. goes inside, and returns moments later with a small cardboard box. Inside this box are little sticks. I've seen them before, they start the fire that lights up the house, our house. He sticks the stick against the box, and a little flame appears. In this flame I see hope, happiness, and warmth. He throws it on the ground, right next to me. The fire begins to spread. It spreads to me. At first, it's warm. It lifts my spirit. I dream of a better Christmas, one in which we are all together, we are all happy.
That dream dissipates as soon as it appears. As the fire spreads, it starts to hurt. Then it the pain becomes unbearable. It's something that I have never experienced before. I'm falling apart. I never knew how similar fire and snow were. They're so beautiful, so peaceful looking. But the pain is worse than anything, and before I know it, I've become the host of the biggest, brightest fire that I have ever seen. My body has become the fire and the fire has become me. Mr. stands over me, with a slight smile on his face. I have no idea why he would do that to me, why he would do that to his family. But I can't be angry at him because he seems to be happy now. The world starts to go dark and I waste away into nothing.
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The end. A little weird, I know, but I kind of like it. I'd advise against reading it if possible, it's too long. Anyways, enjoy your Sunday!
ALSO this is not a true story. Just a story. Well it may be true, but I've never heard of it before.
Blog Post 12: Isabel Bandoroff
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Post 11: My Little Racecar (Gloria Pulley)
Tuesday, November 10, 2015
Aditi Lohe Blog Post 11
Monday, November 9, 2015
I might have learned something from world! Or not. #7 YKK
Assignment 13: Changes!
To Be Absolutely Clear -
You are writing your own satire, not discussing satire. Read lots and lots and lots of The Onion before you start!
Assignment 12: Brave Little Toasters
Sunday, November 8, 2015
Allie Gregory's Post 11
Nate Assignment 11
Zombies are a major component to today's pop culture. We often image what it would be like to be in one of the scenarios played on TV or video games. If Abi Peck were to survive the undead apocalypse, here's how she'd do it...
A major issue I have come to notice in zombie media is the use of loud and over powered weaponry. A 22LR cartridge could just as easily bust your brain bucket as a 50 cal rifle. That being said, I would opt more for a low powered rifle that was accurate from afar rather than a cumbersome gun of a higher power. A light weight sword such as Michonne of The Walking Dead's katana would be most effective in up close encounters, allowing for quick dispatching of foes while keeping them at arms length.
As for my intial plan, I would head for the plains or a body of water with a boat. With great visibility on both counts both would be adequate. As far as I know zombies don't swim so maybe the boat would be better. If I were in a group, I would like to establish a fort on a hill in the plains as soon as possible. I've always been defense minded.
Thomas Werner Blog Post 11
And we did it.
Going through something like that creates a bond like no other. Since then we've been through a lot together, from lacrosse games to late night adventures. Some of the best memories of life I have are with that man by my side. I know he'll always be there as my good bud, as I will for him.
Tori post 11
On my right she's kind of quiet, and reserved, but really funny when she does talk. Definitely a light blue, not in your face and just very pleasant. And I think she's a bird. I see her working with kids, she's good with people.
On my left, she's still kind of reserved, and funny. Has great fashion sense. I feel like she's a dark red very passionate about things, but also not crazy. A jaguar maybe. I see her doing something hands on, she's energetic, from what I can tell.
Both of them are great and I'm glad I get to sit by them. They make me laugh, and are always there to help. I like them, I hope they like me lol.
Yeah, okay that's all folks.
Hannah Price- Assignment 11
The Embarrasing Results of My Issues with Social Interaction, by Annie Deitz (Blog 11)
That figure represents the number of classes (outside of this one) that I have shared with Nate Dutch.
3
That figure represents the number of facts Isabel Bandoroff told me about Nate Dutch this morning.
1.) He loves Michigan State.
2.) He plays basketball for fun.
3.) He is good at Spanish.
While I am extremely grateful for these useful and true facts about my seat partner, I still don't really know him well enough to categorize him as an animal or color. He seems like a fox and a spruce, but for all I know he could be terrified of foxes and a complete periwinkle.
So rather than answer those parts of the prompt, I'm going to create a list of assumptions- as well as the proof that led me to them.
1.) He might actually be the smartest person in this class. Sorry (but I'm not)
- I think out of all of the vocab quizzes we have taken this semester he has answered two incorrectly. I'm not joking. Two. Maybe even one. Who does that? No one.
- He's good at Spanish. Isabel told me. And he's in AP Spanish. Advanced Placement Spanish. Why would you do that if you weren't really good at Spanish.
-He takes Calculus Two. Correct me if I'm wrong Nate, but I know you're not in Calculus One anymore because Mrs. Dewees has your star up on her wall. What does this star resemble? THAT HE SCORED A FIVE ON THE AP CALCULUS EXAM. AS A SOPHMORE.
Honestly, that alone completely supports my claim.
2.) He is a reserved person.
-He isn't shy. He talks to me, to us (us being those in the corner where we sit), sometimes. But he normally refrains from speaking. Possibly he hates us, rather than him not talking to us because of an aspect of his personality he doesn't talk to us because we bother him. Both likely reasons.
3.) He needs pens.
-He typically borrows my pens when we grade vocabulary quizzes. It's not a problem, I love lending him my pens. It's just an observation.
Wow Nate, I'm sorry, I've let you down. Not only have I apparently ignored most of your existence, I have had extreme difficulties hypothesizing anything about you that wasn't directly given to me. I'm hoping that you will have the same difficulties writing about me, and knowing my inability to conduct ordinary social interaction you might. Goodnight Nate. Goodnight Mr. Logsdon. Goodnight Mr. Logsdon's fourth hour English class. Goodnight Isabel, thanks for helping me. Goodnight any other random person who for some reason read my unnecessarily long and unfortunate train wreck. Have a wonderful week.
Holden Huffman Blog Post #11
In class, I sit next to Young Kyung. I had only had first hour chemistry with her before this year and she didn't go to Henry Clay freshman year, so I am just now getting to know her. She is very nice and smart, having to help me in fizix on multiple occasions. I know that she likes to read a lot, but I don't really know what else she likes. She gets 20s on almost all of the vocab quizzes and awesome scores on her practice ap tests. I'm pretty sure she gets A's on everything, but is very humble about it, and I applaud her for that. She seems like a great person overall and I'm glad that I have the privilege of getting to know her this year.
Blog Post 11: Isabel Bandoroff
Also I forgot this earlier but Kirby would probably be a midnight blue - pretty and cool but dark and mysterious.
Tuesday, November 3, 2015
Assignment 6 YKK
2) If you could be any animal in the world, which one? Why?
3) Which genre of book is the best? Why?
1) Even as I was trying to think up prompts for this blog post I couldn’t really think of much. (As you might be able to notice in 2. and 3.) Even when I’m trying to finish my own book it’s easy to start off typing with a high to only slam into the first roadblock a couple minutes later. Am I good enough? Am I creative enough? The motivation to write mostly comes from the books you couldn’t pull your head out of even when your mother called you to dinner. It's natural to try and emulate them exactly - because they work and they're true.
I also feel like that's why a lot of these latest dystopians sound so flat. How come they sound like the last three books we’ve read? Because there's a tried and true formula the authors used. There's nothing wrong with that. The existence of real originality in creating stories is impossible. You can’t really think of a totally new main character - the main character has to fulfill a certain thirst in the reader, and if he’s not relatable or likable to most of the target audience, it’s also probable that story won’t become a bestseller. So he or she has to, in the end, become a certain person within a certain storyline. The chosen hero. The confused person stuck in the midst of a magical world. The total stranger or a familiar nobody. Then how do people create "original" stories? If complete originality is impossible, then there is bound to be part of a trope everywhere. Part of the secret to it is twisting it into a broadly familiar but different form, a more real form.
I often rant to my friends or my parents about a book I’d recently read, often saying how disappointed with it I was, how similar and dull and banal and hackneyed and trite (I know there are other vocab words eluding me right now) it was to some other piece I'd read earlier. But yet I enjoy those books to a certain level - they’ll elicit emotion, they’ll have me thinking about that story for days. It could be that I’m just too gullible of a person. Still, like me, there are audiences who will gobble up the similar candy in a different wrapper (snickers, milky ways, etc..can't really tell the difference between them all). Some will buy the same kind again and again. They are the ones that are the first and best of their kind, the ones that touch more than they don't, like chocolate.
Although it's also probably impossible to fulfill the imagination, will the reservoir of "original" ideas or forms shrink? I don't know.
Assignment 5 YKK: an ignorant opinion
I think if I could watch TV shows nowadays, I’d get really quickly attached (it’s already been proved with Korean dramas) but my parents don’t allow that to happen. A good thing, probably, but leads to a lot of blank staring when the conversation over lunch is about Sherlock (which I have watched one episode of due to Mr. Wise's foresight last year and despite my scaredycat-ness (and yes, sherlock scared me a teensy bit) I already adore).
If it weren’t for all the ads, TV would be a much better place. Although mostly stuff I wouldn’t watch in my entire life, it has a couple gems. It’s not worth wading through all the channels to find anything, though. Inane use of time? Very much. I don’t watch sports or the news channels (partly because I can’t), so my conclusion: Netflix makes a better entertainment system. I don't have it either, but the idea behind it is better.
I think the fact that big screen achievements are far more publicized than the Nobel Prizes is a bad choice of prioritization on the part of the masses. What will affect us more in the future? I'm not saying that movies don't have a great impact, but the discovery of radioactivity was pretty important. Considering the fact that I know of approximately three Nobel Laureates, perhaps I can’t really say anything. Then again, I don’t know a single Emmys winner.
Monday, November 2, 2015
Robert Hancock Blog 11
Thomas Winterton post 10
Robert Hancock Blog 10
Assignment 11: Do you know your neighbor?
I think it is safe to say that you know at least a little about each other. Your understanding of each other may include extra curriculars, favorite TV shows, hobbies, but your level of familiarity may also extend into knowing each other's personality. Are they intimidating, carefree, honest?
Sunday, November 1, 2015
How to Survive the Zombie Apocalypse: An Instructional Manual by Allie Gregory
The other three things to include in your preparation are fairly basic. Food, water, and medical supplies. If you account for the likely full shut down of society, it will be important to have basic means of keeping yourself and others alive. You can't fight zombies very effectively if you're dying of starvation, so all three of these items need to be stocked in plenty.
Step 2: Now that the apocalypse has begun, you have to analyze the situation and figure out how best to overcome it. Zombie's are congregating in urban areas where the most humans are. That being said, you need to find some place with minimal zombies that is easily defensible. Ideas include prisons (I know that's what they do on the Walking Dead even though I've never watched the show -- it sounds pretty brilliant), ships (I don't like to assume the zombies can't do things, but I find their ability to swim or operate boats questionable -- discard this idea should I be proved wrong), or maybe a blimp. This last idea is my personal favorite as you could potentially survive in a blimp with numerous people for a good deal of time. If society falls apart quickly enough, I'm sure you'll be able to find one. If you do your research ahead of time (as you really should after reading my guide), you might even know exactly where to find one near you and how to operate it. The situation certainly depends on the capabilities of the zombies, which as I've discussed are to be determined, but if you lay out your options ahead of time, it shouldn't take long to figure out which will work best.
Step 3: Save as many people as possible. Now this step is optional. I can't stop you from taking your family and running. I can't even stop you from leaving your family to die and saving yourself. But I can remind you that such actions would cause me to harshly judge your strength of character and or lack thereof and kindly request that you don't do them. If you can take people with you, please try. I would save my family and friends if possible, maybe the odd stranger, if they looked like they needed help. If you find children whose parents have become zombies, I must stress the judgement on leaving them behind. Please don't.
Step 4: Look for an end game. You've fought to a stronghold and fought to defend it. You've had to overcome anarchy and survive on limited resources. But you don't want to keep fighting your whole life. Instead, look for a cure. I really really hope you saved some scientists because you'd really love to save all those innocent people who have become zombies. But if you can't... If you determine that it is 110% absolutely impossible to save them... You must find a way to get rid of them. Again a scientist might be helpful or possible a chemist who's good at bombs. Find out what kills them. Make a plan. Enact this plan.
Step 5: Take over the world that rises from the ashes. Become supreme overlord.
Thanks for reading! Good luck surviving the apocalypse!
Post 10- Tori
So i suppose I'll write about what scares me the most. I'm severely terrified of making people angry, which is sometimes a problem because I'm a very passive aggressive person, and very aggressive about certain things. And I don't mean make people angry like people in the grocery store rolling their eyes at me, and sometimes I don't even care if I make my best friend mad. But there are certain people that can look at me the wrong way and I'll have this severe panic restrict my breathing. I'm not afraid of them and the fact that theyre angry, but because I'm increasingly afraid of everyone leaving me. I'm afraid of being alone, and not having anyone to talk to. Not because I need everyone to listen to my problems, although that is nice, but sometimes I just see something funny and I want to share it with people.
I guess I should end this post here, it got a lot more personal than I would've liked, but I don't have anything else to write about, and it's already lame that I'm afraid of making people angry, yeah alright. Okay, I'm done, bye guys.
Blog post 10 Thomas Werner
Assignment 4: YKK
Assignment 3 YKK: Black and White?
Aditi Lohe Blog Post #10
Nate Assignment 10
Nate Assignment 9
Holden Huffman Blog Post #10
Blog Post 10: Isabel Bandoroff - Zombie Apocalypse
Aditi Lohe Blog post #8
Annoyances: lying, rudeness, repetitiveness, hypocrisy, close-mindedness, when someone acts like they are above others, arrogance and ignorance, immaturity, judging people based on appearance
Accomplishments: running cross country, being in the academy
Confusions: physics, why people pressure others to do something that doesn't even affect them
Sorrows: procrastination, self-motivation
Dreams: to move to a city, to be independent, travel the world, have a happy family, have a job I love, experience life to the fullest
Idiosyncrasies: I bite on my lips a lot when I'm nervous or anxious, love-hate (mostly hate) relationships with roller coasters, obsession with reading
Risks: Angel's landing hike in Zion national Park in Utah, snowboarding, river hiking, kayaking
Beloved Possessions, now and then: my books, my ring I never take off, my camera, my family, my unicorn stuffed animal (then)
Problems: motivation, procrastination, doubting myself, dealing with frustration
I am going to expand on annoyances and problems.
Annoyances: I honestly just hate drama. All the lying people do sickens me. If you have a problem with someone, you should just tell them instead of acting like nothing is wrong to their face and then gossiping about them behind their back. Nothing can get better unless you confront the problem. Quite frankly, I'm tired of it. All the hypocrisy and the competition and the arrogance disgusts me. Why people feel the need to put others down is something I will never understand. Instead of being two-faced, people might be happier if they just be honest, to themselves and to others.
Problems: I have lots of trouble finding motivation to do well in life. I don't know where I am headed. I am unsure about what I like, where I want to go for college, what I want to study, etc. and it is making it difficult for me to find a reason to work hard. I also have a problem with not being able to talk to people. First off people judge me and already have certain opinions and assumptions on what kind of person I am before we have ever even talked. and secondly, I grew up in a pretty reserved household so I am not the most confident and outgoing person when it comes to new people.